disorder

  LIVING IN THE CHAOS  There are times when i feel so alive ,full of energy maybe even too much . but then ,thare are moments when everything feels empty ,like i m drowning in an endless ocean. this isn't just being ''moody,'' and it's more than simple ''overthinking.'' Ioften feel two oppsing emotions at the same time. I cloud be laughing with my frends ,yet deep inside ,I feel hollow .sometimes ,i want to meet somone, but when the chance actually comes, i just want to run away ,i've also dealt with trauma-somethings that left such a deep mark that i don't even know how to let it go. One of the hardest things is the extreme mood swings. in the morning, i might feel motivated to do a lot, but just a few hours later , everythings changes-it's like my body refuses to move . thare's also an indescribable fear. I've been terrified of things that seem trivial to others ,like an overwhelming anxiety whenever something involves my ne...